X-axis= Age with each passing year, Y-axis="Genuinity" of people that come along.

It was just recently that we were sitting in Looking Forward To Higher Education (LF2HE).

Yes, i know what you're thinking. We do, as a matter of fact, have such a class. Either way, it's better than classes i had to sit through in high school, take Moral & Civics for example. Our teacher, Sarah was talking about universities. It was the most interesting class so far. Our jaws dropped when we saw the interview video for Cambridge, it dropped further when we saw the amazing facilities in Manchester. Finally, our jaws just gave in to shock, and gravity and clattered onto the ground when we saw the tuition fees. Good God, it made and still makes me wish that I had multiple offshore accounts as well as those cliche magic purses from Enid Blyton that never ran out of money. Sarah then moved on to talk about college and universities as well as the friends you might make in the future. She was saying that it is unusual for the people you meet in the first week to continue being in your circle of intimates in the future. It was the truth. 

I'm pretty sure you think the title of the post is a little dodgy but do try to put it in a mathematical term. The age of a person with each passing year acts as the x-axis (a manipulated variable) and the "genuinity" of people that come along acts as the y-axis(responding variable). If you could gage the "genuinity" of people that come along as you grow with each passing year and plot the graph. I'm pretty sure there would be a fall in the "genuinity" scale.

I know I've done a few posts on something similar to this. But it is true. It is so hard to find good friends. I knew that, even in high school but I've been blessed. It's so difficult to find friends that share the same interests, "frequency" and chemistry. Now in college, it's pretty much the same thing not forgetting the fact that I'm in a whole other country. It's hard to find friends who genuinely like you for you, friends who accept your flaws and imperfections as well as friends who will be there for you through thick or thin. 

The sad fact is that it gets harder as you grow up. 

As we mature into adults to venture into the world, our priorities get 50 shades screwed up. Life's simple pleasures get blurred out by issues of the modern society. It is beyond depressing when you actually think about it. When we were kids, we never worried what society might think of us. We never worried if we were judged by our peers. I don't think we even knew what the whole "society is judgemental and ugly" concept was. We spent time worrying about little things that seemed like the end of the world to us when it is indeed child's play compared to whatever we're facing now. Our world was a few blocks wide. We were of pure and innocent thoughts and motives, without envy or negativity. We never worried what we were going to be in the future as we were convinced that it will all work out. There was a song my family sang to me, titled "Que Sera Sera" by Doris Day.

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, "What will I be?
Will I be pretty, will I be rich?"
Here's what she said to me

"Que Sera, Sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be"

As we grow and mature, hypocrisy, jealousy, rivalry, arrogance, manipulation and insecurities come into view. Some are even overwhelmed by the will to succeed that they are willing to step on others to achieve it. It's important to achieve one's dreams and reach the peak of success, but none of that matters if all you're left with are the bitter memories of how you've tossed friendship aside and stomped on others to reach where you are, where you're alone in spirit. Some take advantage of the goodwill of the friends where some have hidden motives in their kind gestures. The world is filled with all sorts of people with different priorities. Some dark, some screwed up, some selfish, some manipulative and the list goes on and on. As i said, the level of "genuinity" in people you meet falls as you grow up. Again the y-axis changes as the digits on the x-axis move further from the 0.

When you were younger, people actually wanted to be your friend because of who you truly are. However as you grow up, people want to be your friend because of what you are.

Sad fact, ain't it.

If you've found someone with pure, transparent & genuine priorities, then you're already blessed. In this crazy, screwed up world, that's considered a blessing. Cherish them, because they're one in a kazillion. Don't waste your time on those who are not worthy of it.

Carpe Diem and live the moment, and c'est la vie because that's life.

This is just another post regarding friendship to add to previous similar posts "Friendship" and "The Categories of Friendship".

http://www.pokerfaceeeyyy-carpediem.blogspot.co.uk/2014/04/friendship.html 

http://www.pokerfaceeeyyy-carpediem.blogspot.co.uk/2014/07/the-categories-of-friendship.html

Blank Space. Taylor Swift. 1989.

Dedicated to: The beloved Juniors 97'.

Dear Juniors,

First thing's first, I would like to wish you guys all the best for SPM 2014! You guys will do absolutely amazing, don't worry about it. Even if you feel like you won't do that well, it's the effort that counts. I know you guys are at the final lap of high school right now and that everything might get easier after this. It will! You'd enjoy PROM 2014 - Masquerade ;) , parties, outings, hang outs, joyrides, mamak sessions until the wee hours, Ramly as supper and even shopping and travelling! You guys will have so much fun , until college starts. It's a whole different ball game and I'd like to wish you guys luck for it :) x All the best!

Love always, 
Ace

Next thing, I'm not going to sugarcoat it but it is true, the more As the better it is in the eyes of basically all colleges. Why? You need the As to prove to them that you're able to study hard and score. And yes, most scholarships are reserved for those with straight As or so. Again, why? The scholarships are given to those who prove themselves worthy on paper regardless of their souls. You can be an absolute tit and still be able to get scholarships with straight As. I do know shitards with absolutely no ethics who've gotten scholarships and are able to dance around parading that stick in a hole they call their asses. I know I'm not doing a great job at encouraging you but that's the truth.Basically, life is unfair. Society is judgemental and will judge you on that piece of paper with results. However, don't lose sleep over that because there are quite a number of doors opened for students with personality and soul over the number of As printed on the paper. What counts in the end is whether or not you have given your all.

If it was up to me, I'd do a full background check on the student- what their peers think of them, what sort of history they had, if they learned from their mistakes etc- before I'd give a scholarship. I think the best type of scholarships would be the type that take into account the student's overall behaviour, personality, IQ as well as EQ. Believe me, I would.

Third thing, if you didn't "apologise" and send out apology mails, don't worry, it won't affect anything. You'd still do fine as long as you did your part. You'll get what you deserve. I'd like to take you back to 2013 where I had an "apology" session (or something) right before SPM. I had absolutely no idea what it was about all the years until 2013 where it clicked into place. Basically, you apologise to absolutely every single bloody person in your path, in case you've hurt their feelings in the past. The belief is that once you do that, you're sort of cleared from the mistakes, hurts and grudges- and that you'll do well in SPM.

It is a very honourable gesture, to ask for forgiveness from your peers and your teachers RIGHT BEFORE SPM to ensure (hopefully) that you'd do well. It really is. Ya know, when you calculate the time you use to actually type an apology note and the time spent messaging people on Facebook, twitter and so on.

I would like to clarify something.

Just because you apologise for something you might or might not have done does NOT mean you will be blessed with great results. You're apologising not because you sincerely want to, but because you're in fear that you don't do well in your exam. If you actually meant it from the bottom of the thing you call a heart, that apology would have been said a long time ago and not before a big exam. What logic is there? I don't think the whole apologising-right-before-exams-just-so-you-can-score makes sense.

If you really are sorry for anything you've done, you'd have apologised a long time ago. Now, that is bravery, ball-sy and genuine. Hats off to that person who've let grudges go a long time ago and seized the second, seized the moment, seized the day.

Carpe Diem.

Anyways yes, i've always wanted to do a post related to this. I am sorry if anyone is offended, that wasn't my intention. However, right now, all I can say is 'Siapa makan cili, dia yang rasa pedas'. Or in another language, 'If the shoe fits, lace it up.

"Originality"

Exactly, twat. 

                                                           If the shoe fits, lace it up.

Wake up and Live.

I am so happy here.

Words can't describe how happy I am to be in UK.

North Wales is beautiful. The fresh air is great. The food is so good. My senses have never been so alive. The people are mostly great. College is absolutely amazing. The education system is a dream. It's a different culture, so different yet so alike from what I've seen in movies. You meet different people from different backgrounds. You get exposed. You socialise. You learn. You grow.

Most importantly, you live. 

Just one thing, I don't get why people are looking forward to see me miserable. Yes, I know I might be overreacting and behaving like a drama queen and it sounds absolutely horrible when I put it that way but honestly, most people are just waiting to hear that I'm homesick and want to go back. (A couple of them are betting I'd balloon up in the winter as well). Dad says it's because it has usually been like that for decades. They live with the mentality that once people go abroad to study, they will miss home like crazy, lose their appetite, lock the doors of the room and bawl their eyes out. Probably losing the will to live for a few months in the process. You're in a new country. Explore, learn, live. Frankly, if you're not going to take a step out to venture into the world and if you're not going to fill the chapters of your life with memories, you're really wasting your time and your parents' money.

Here's the deal though, I'm not homesick and don't want to go back home at the moment.

I do miss my family, loved ones and my friends and the food back home. I just don't talk or think about it because there is absolutely no point in moping about when there's so much for you to explore and learn. There are so many beautiful reasons to be happy. The reasons for one to be happy outweighs the reasons not to be.

And there's that saying that goes "The world is your oyster". It's time to wake up and live.

The quote says it all.