I can't fully justify it but I had no choice.
Then Skylar Grey's 'I know you' came on my iTunes playlist and it was the first time I listened to the lyrics.
It hit me. It was like a sharp slap across my face.
"I have been patient, but slowly I'm losing faith"
Maybe it's the truth. I have been patient for far too long and there was little progress. In fact, the entire thing deteriorated into a certain dark depth I can't explain and can't tolerate.
For anything in life to work between two parties, there has to be compromise- business agreements, parties, relationships, arrangements and even basic negotiation. However, there is a limit and the final straw that bends with abuse of the idea of compromise. It eventually breaks.
I've been lying to myself, saying it'll work out, to compromise and learn to accept it all. I can accept flaws and imperfection but there actually has to be light at the end of the tunnel and not just darkness.
I don't recognise myself or the person I turned to, to just give in to everything so easily.
I've finally woken up.
I've been compromising too much.
Fortunately, I've always been the type of person who puts family and friends and God first. At least I know deep down that God, family and friends?
They are forever.
