Carpe Diem: October 2014

Dear Juniors,

First thing's first, I would like to wish you guys all the best for SPM 2014! You guys will do absolutely amazing, don't worry about it. Even if you feel like you won't do that well, it's the effort that counts. I know you guys are at the final lap of high school right now and that everything might get easier after this. It will! You'd enjoy PROM 2014 - Masquerade ;) , parties, outings, hang outs, joyrides, mamak sessions until the wee hours, Ramly as supper and even shopping and travelling! You guys will have so much fun , until college starts. It's a whole different ball game and I'd like to wish you guys luck for it :) x All the best!

Love always,
Ace

Next thing, I'm not going to sugarcoat it but it is true, the more As the better it is in the eyes of basically all colleges. Why? You need the As to prove to them that you're able to study hard and score. And yes, most scholarships are reserved for those with straight As or so. Again, why? The scholarships are given to those who prove themselves worthy on paper regardless of their souls. You can be an absolute tit and still be able to get scholarships with straight As. I do know shitards with absolutely no ethics who've gotten scholarships and are able to dance around parading that stick in a hole they call their asses. I know I'm not doing a great job at encouraging you but that's the truth.Basically, life is unfair. Society is judgemental and will judge you on that piece of paper with results. However, don't lose sleep over that because there are quite a number of doors opened for students with personality and soul over the number of As printed on the paper. What counts in the end is whether or not you have given your all.

If it was up to me, I'd do a full background check on the student- what their peers think of them, what sort of history they had, if they learned from their mistakes etc- before I'd give a scholarship. I think the best type of scholarships would be the type that take into account the student's overall behaviour, personality, IQ as well as EQ. Believe me, I would.

Third thing, if you didn't "apologise" and send out apology mails, don't worry, it won't affect anything. You'd still do fine as long as you did your part. You'll get what you deserve. I'd like to take you back to 2013 where I had an "apology" session (or something) right before SPM. I had absolutely no idea what it was about all the years until 2013 where it clicked into place. Basically, you apologise to absolutely every single bloody person in your path, in case you've hurt their feelings in the past. The belief is that once you do that, you're sort of cleared from the mistakes, hurts and grudges- and that you'll do well in SPM.

It is a very honourable gesture, to ask for forgiveness from your peers and your teachers RIGHT BEFORE SPM to ensure (hopefully) that you'd do well. It really is. Ya know, when you calculate the time you use to actually type an apology note and the time spent messaging people on Facebook, twitter and so on.

I would like to clarify something.

Just because you apologise for something you might or might not have done does NOT mean you will be blessed with great results. You're apologising not because you sincerely want to, but because you're in fear that you don't do well in your exam. If you actually meant it from the bottom of the thing you call a heart, that apology would have been said a long time ago and not before a big exam. What logic is there? I don't think the whole apologising-right-before-exams-just-so-you-can-score makes sense.

If you really are sorry for anything you've done, you'd have apologised a long time ago. Now, that is bravery, ball-sy and genuine. Hats off to that person who've let grudges go a long time ago and seized the second, seized the moment, seized the day.

Carpe Diem.

Anyways yes, i've always wanted to do a post related to this. I am sorry if anyone is offended, that wasn't my intention. However, right now, all I can say is 'Siapa makan cili, dia yang rasa pedas'. Or in another language, 'If the shoe fits, lace it up.

I am so happy here.

Words can't describe how happy I am to be in UK.

North Wales is beautiful. The fresh air is great. The food is so good. My senses have never been so alive. The people are mostly great. College is absolutely amazing. The education system is a dream. It's a different culture, so different yet so alike from what I've seen in movies. You meet different people from different backgrounds. You get exposed. You socialise. You learn. You grow.

Most importantly, you live.

Just one thing, I don't get why people are looking forward to see me miserable. Yes, I know I might be overreacting and behaving like a drama queen and it sounds absolutely horrible when I put it that way but honestly, most people are just waiting to hear that I'm homesick and want to go back. (A couple of them are betting I'd balloon up in the winter as well). Dad says it's because it has usually been like that for decades. They live with the mentality that once people go abroad to study, they will miss home like crazy, lose their appetite, lock the doors of the room and bawl their eyes out. Probably losing the will to live for a few months in the process. You're in a new country. Explore, learn, live. Frankly, if you're not going to take a step out to venture into the world and if you're not going to fill the chapters of your life with memories, you're really wasting your time and your parents' money.

Here's the deal though, I'm not homesick and don't want to go back home at the moment.

I do miss my family, loved ones and my friends ~~and the food~~ back home. I just don't talk or think about it because there is absolutely no point in moping about when there's so much for you to explore and learn. There are so many beautiful reasons to be happy. The reasons for one to be happy outweighs the reasons not to be.