That one annoying Bitch.

That one annoying bitch.

She hates you.
She hates your guts.
She glares at you whenever she can.
She has that high pitch, good girl, disgusting, suck up voice.
She thinks she's a saint, a martyr and she's holier than you.
She spreads rumors about you when you are totally innocent.
She finds ways to sabotage you whenever she sees an opportunity.
She becomes friends with your friends.
She turns everyone against you.
She's a mean hypocrite and is sugar-sweet and nice to you in front of your friends.
She sometimes ostracizes you when you're in a group.
She does all of it for no apparent reason.


Seriously. I can say I am not done talking about this bitch. If you flip open dictionaries and search the word "bitch", her IC number, passport picture and name will pop up as the definition.

Of all the times I have done something wrong, I can promise I am absolutely innocent this time.
For the past 3 years I've been just backing down and letting it go because of the "status quo" and the absurd "cliche" ideology they have going. She doesn't upset me.

I upset myself.

I am Ace. I don't deserve to be treated this way. I remember what and how it's like, being able to bury someone just like that with a snap of my fingers. It was so easy. I gave that up when i step foot there because i thought it would be the right thing to do. Right now, I beg to differ. Judgemental assholes deserves no different from the past idiots I've dealt with.

No, seriously, I'm actually really really bitchy and mean if you give me a reason to be.

The next time the bitch pisses me off, no more holding back.

55 facts about Me!

1)   My name is Ace Khoo Swee Lin, but only "Khoo Swee Lin" on my I/C because unfortunately my parents did not put "Ace" there even though i grew up with that name.

2)   I'll be turning 18 on the 21st of June 2014. 18 & legal baby!

3)   I play piano. I started lessons with my mum since I was 6.

4)   I play drums. I had 4 and a half years of lessons at Euphony when i was 12.

5)   I play guitar. I started a year of lessons when I was 15 to get the basics.

6)   I play the Cajon percussion drums and the ukelele as well. So clearly i love music!

7)   I can cook and bake simple dishes and desserts.

8)   I work part time at Kidzania Kuala Lumpur- best job ever!

9)   I speak English, Bahasa Melayu, Mandarin, Hokkien and Japanese-Yes i took Japanese lessons.

10) I used to hate make up, or heels and I claimed that I would never use either of them. I was wrong.

11) I fell in flats 2 years ago during the chinese dinner event. A year after that during senior prom, i could run and i was dancing the whole night in 4 inch heels. Yes, miracles do happen.

12) I don't cake my face in make up but I do like to use it when I feel like it. Benefit's Primer, Maybeline's Hyperline eyeliner and Benefit and Sephora's nude eyeshadow are my favorites.

13) My jersey number is my favorite number - 69.

14) I was born in Penang. My whole family is from Penang.

15) I went to SJK(C) Damansara during my primary years and SMK Bukit Rahman Putra for my secondary education. High school won, hands down. I hated my primary school life.

16) I used to be really insecure. I'm better now but I do get insecure at times.

17) I'm extremely talkative. Hazard alert. Once you get to know me better, i become even more talkative.

18) I'm Christian and I'm proud of it. I'm spiritual, not religious. I'm not your typical Christian girl. I love God very much and I thank Him for all I am today.

19) I am chinese and 1/4 Indonesian. My dad is sorta mixed Chinese-Indonesian and my mum's Nyonya so yay!

20) I want to do A-levels and then law. My backup plan is to turn to mass com or the English field.

21) My dream is to travel the world and get to stay wherever i want, whenever I want. My favorite countries are 4 season countries!

22) I love animals and I'm against animal cruelty. I am in love with all dogs, dolphins, penguins and fat, fluffy cats. Oh, and unicorns.

23) I don't like reptiles. At all. I have phobia to snakes.

24) I will defend what is mine and I will crush you the moment you try to shake me. I will not stop until you are destroyed and I am satisfied. But that only happens if you really get on my bad side.

25) I'm usually really nice. I like people who don't cause problems for me.

26) I can be really, really, reaaaaally bitchy.

27) I love camwhoring and taking selfies.

28) I love getting mani-pedis with my mum.

29) I love reading. I'm sort of a secret bookworm-nerd.

30) I love the 50 shades trilogy, the Hunger Games trilogy, Harry Potter, the Twilight Saga, Divergent trilogy. Both books & upcoming movies.

31) My favorite authors are Enid Blyton(childhood), John Green, Jodi Picoult, Nicholas Sparks, Shakespeare, Jane Austen, Jeffery Archer, Jackie Collins and Cassandra Clare.

32) I love TV series as well. I have tons of favorites such as Revenge, Glee, Sherlock but my all time favorite is - DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES. I love re-watching the whole thing from season one.

33) I love movies. I LOVE THEM. Animated or not, I still do!

34) My movie buddies are usually ZSC (Yenn, Foong, Jian Chuan), 4meansforever (Xuan, Cyan and Pei), Winnis, and Kavin.

35) I'm not really an emotional person. So no i don't cry during sad movies.

36) For presents, I love personalized and sentimental items.

37) I absolutely love extremely long, long, long posts on how you feel about me.

38) I used to debate in high school, 3 years straight but not anymore.

39) I have a huge and extended photowall in my room.

40) I am not a light packer. That means wherever i go, no matter how long, my bag has to be heavy.

41) I custom my dresses and order it from my mum's tailor because I'm very, very picky with dresses.

42) My all time favorite brand of shoes is Converse. I love Vans for sneakers as well. For pumps and heels, i love Primavera, Daphne, Charles & Keith and whatever's beautiful and long lasting.

43) I absolutely hate wannabes ( especially lala girls) who love giving you the stare for no apparent reason when you walk in a room.

44) I had to learn the hard way that not everyone is nice. That there are users, hypocrites and jealous bitches waiting for the fall out.

45) I love all my friends who remain faithful and loyal to me, those who love me tons for who and what I am. You know who you are ;)

46) I love my immediate family very, very much. For the extended, I adore mum's side grandpa, e-e and koo, as well as ChimPo Gillian, Ghee ko, Teik ko, Sim chee and Sharon!

47) I don't like sports, i don't like the outdoors. I like ice-skating though, but I'm so-so only.

48) I used to have trust issues. I still do.

49) I love vintage accessories and plush toys, the cuddlier the better!

50) I am extremely obsessed with the red balloon emoticon on the emoji keypad.

51) My favorite drink at Starbucks is Choco cream chip.

52) I love rave parties, parties, and hangouts, or movie outings. Or lunch dates ;)

53) My standard in guys are apparently really high, but according to 4meansforever, my taste is really bad. I want a guy who is able to communicate well with good grammar, not perfect, but good. Someone who knows what topic is appropriate. Likable, sociable, understanding, responsible, matured, loyal, intelligent, funny and sweet who would accept me for all I am. Oh, and dresses appropriately. I cannot stand guys who wear jeans and slippers. That's the definition of rempit. Such a turn off.

54) Yes, there is a special sweetheart in my life. We know our priorities, don't worry.

55) My all-time favorite Disney Princess & movie is Ariel from the Little Mermaid. She's full of wonder and curiosity. Oh, and I absolutely love Frozen.


This post is dedicated to EnQi, that sweetheart who asked me to do it on ask.fm more than 3 months ago. So sorry for it being so late my dear! Stay amazing!

Reputation. Rumors. Haters.

As humans, no matter how many times we deny it, reputation and namesake plays a very important role in our lives. However, if you really don't mind people going around backstabbing, gossiping, spreading rumors and thrashing you behind your back, hats off to you.

During some point in our lives, or right now, we have all encountered so-called talented twats who had decided to be the author of GossipAboutMe.com, starring you. We stand up and try so hard to convince ourselves that we don't care about the rumors because they aren't true and that we have better things to do. Yes, I'm talking to you. Don't try to hide it. You know you've done it. However, I am so sorry to tell you that deep inside, a part of you cares. Very much indeed. 

I admit I DO tell myself I don't really give a flying unicorn's ass when judgemental know-it-alls go around spreading rumors and gossiping about me, when in reality, I do. I'm only human. It is human nature to actually care. Unless I've done something massively wrong in the eyes of society, I will never understand the shallow ignorant snobs who actually have the non-existent balls to thrash and backstab me with my back turned but not the actual balls to do so to my face. Magically, when they come face to face with me, they smile and act like they care when all they want is the opportunity to gossip and make up rumors about me, waiting for the fall out. They fly around like vultures. Bloody hypocrites. 

Here, I would like to elaborate about the different types of people there are in this cobweb of disaster.

1) The Jealous Bitch.

Yes, the Jealous Bitch is the one who starts the ball rolling. The hater who starts up the rumors and gossip. If I were to continue blogging about the Spawns of Satan of this category, It will never end as there are not enough words and adjectives in the Oxford dictionary to describe these geniuses. 

2) The Cronies of The "Sacred" Inner and Outer Circle.

Every Jealous Bitch has her "Sacred" "inner" Circle and the weak and fearful participants of the Circle are called The Cronies. Be it in the Jealous Bitch's Inner or Outer circle, The Cronies have an extremely wide, clear and empty vacancy at the part of their heads where their brain should be. Unable to think logically or process information, the Cronies take everything and every rumor or gossip fed by their Almighty leader, The Jealous Bitch, to do their duties as honorable and loyal followers to spread the spores of the lies all over the place. 

3) The Rumor Arsonist.

An Arsonist is a person who has the tendency to set things on fire. He or she may enjoy doing so as well. The Rumor Arsonist, as the name tells you, loves pouring even more gasoline over the fire already burning just to "spice" things up. This group of people are extremely blessed to have so much time on their hands to worsen the condition of things instead of worrying about their own lives.

4) The Leavers

These are the ones who choose the rumors over you. They will actually walk away from you because of some ridiculously absurd reason. It hurts like hell, but eventually, you'll see they weren't meant to be.

Fortunately, a few good things can come out of this. The first being, of course, you'll come out stronger. Secondly being how with all this going on, you'd get to see the true colors of everyone around you. That's right, you'd get to see which of your friends are true to you, which of them will stay and trust you, or fall into the rumors and go. It's really painful to see friends leave, where their true colors and trust plays an important role. If you have friends, especially close friends, who choose to leave you because of the rumors, they were never your friends from the start. 

For me, I used to be upset and frustrated about it but now, I look at it as a blessing in disguise. If they so easily choose the rumors over you, how much will they betray and hurt you in the future?

Always look on the bright side, with every friend who leaves, a cut is made and a scab is formed. It is your choice whether or not to pick at it. 

If you pick at it, it'll bleed and you're back to square one, reliving the hurtful memories and never recovering or moving on. 

If you let the scab heal to become a scar, a lesson is learnt and you'll be wiser and stronger in the future.

Damn straight.

Don't let all the nonsense happening around to ruin your joy and happiness. They're not worth it. Keep living your life the way you want it. Life isn't worth it to be wasting it about them. That is a lesson I am learning as well. Smile, it'll kill them.

The Un-namable "After-SPM-results" Period.

As you know, the annual SPM results come out around late March. 

After that happens, the annual Q&A period of how many As one scored comes up. Following that is the golden question regarding the next level of education. 

Often encountering this situation, I smile and tell people I'm not in college yet but I am waiting for my intake for A Levels, and avoid further questions because,

1) Most of them only ask because they are nosey, "kia-su" and are there to compare.

2) Majority of them don't genuinely give a flying unicorn about you. 

3) You will probably become the next thing they gossip about.

*The 3 points above are subject to individuals and is applied to people other than immediate family and close friends*

Some people tell me I'm wasting time and they ask me why not start college earlier. My reply is simple, because I don't want to rush into college just yet and I want to spend time doing things I want to do. Me. Myself & I.

Secondly, because technically September is the only intake other than January. 

After that, they ask how am I lazing and wasting the days aways while waiting for the intake. 

How am I spending my free time? Well, i spend it wisely. Let's see.

I have an amazing part time job.

I spend even more time with my family, especially my mum.

I do spend time with my friends.

I spend personal time with God. Amen.

I pick up cooking and new recipes.

I learn more songs on the instruments.

I can travel to another state, or country nearby.

I read books I've always wanted to read.

I read up on law and even more literature to grasp whatever I can before college.

I continue drawing and painting (even though I'm mediocre.)

I continue creative writing as well as photo/movie-making.

I learn new things every day.

So no, I don't think it's a waste of time because I'm doing everything that makes me really happy.

I had a few people (Adults) who actually told me upfront to my face that my choice in A-Levels is apparently to them, "a waste of time" and once, an incredibly harsh and ignorant woman (a spinster even though she was married), told me that I wasn't confident and didn't know what i want.

I told them all with a smile that it is my choice and decision to go for A Levels, as I preferred having numerous options for university and my career in the future. Yes, the plan is Law all the way, but what's the harm in having even more options? Why not? I obviously do know what I want. I even know what type of house I'd like and how I'd like to sue ignorant snots in the high court in the future. Thank God. I have aims, goals and visions but there is no harm in wanting to expand. I'm very thankful to God that I have a family who loves and supports me all the way.

I think that each course, IB, A-Levels, Diploma, Foundation etc are all designed for different individuals with different preferences. That is why i don't believe that one is better than the other as each of us are made differently. If some ignorant, half-assed, small minded nincompoop has the guts to tell you straight to your face that you're in the wrong direction, build up the courage to tell them what you really feel. Everybody is entitled to their own opinions but then, an empty vessel makes the most noise. 

So yes, this is what's happening. Dear juniors, if you are reading this, this is what to expect annually. All the best and May the Odds be ever in your Favor!

Singapore.

Orchard at night.

About this time last week, I was in Singapore.

My aunt was on a business trip so my parents agreed that it would be good i stayed with her at Pan Pacific at Somerset situated in the heart of Singapore for about a week, to be independent. I was in Singapore from the 9th-15th April 2014.

The hotel i stayed in was absolutely fantastic. Breakfast was so fabulous. It was partly a buffet and an a-la carte breakfast. I had Salmon and Bagel, French Raisin toast, Belgian waffles and the list goes on and on.

Egg benedict.

Salmon and Bagel.

I met quite a few people there, lunch appointments and outings. There was my Aunt Chris and her sister as well as their teenage nephew, my Aunt Gaik and Aunt Mei Lin and her family, Yani from KZKL and not forgetting my mother's school friends.

Ms. Yani.

Of course, I visited a few places like the famous Marina Bay Mall and the Gardens by the Bay, Bugis Street, Chinatown, the Peranakan Museum and the art gallery. Since i was staying at Somerset around Orchard, right in the heart of Singapore, I was in a shopping paradise so I didn't need to travel that far for shopping. They had Starbucks and Forever 21 at every corner. Their H&M outlet was massive.

Chinatown.

Gardens by the Bay.

Marina Bay Sands.

Peranakan Museum.

Bugis Street.

The streets of Singapore.

There are a few things I would like to point out in Singapore:

1) Public Transportation.

It is ridiculously easy and convenient to get around in Singapore. The public transportation system is amazing not to mention the traffic is so smooth, at junctions and even one or two way roads, the pedestrian crossing and traffic lights are timed perfectly. 

2) Cleanliness.

It would be beyond difficult to rate the scale of cleanliness in Singapore, it is so clean the scale would break. Trust me, there isn't rubbish. At all. 

3) The Lifestyle.

Singapore is a fast moving city. In the hustle and bustle of the loud, noisy, brightly lit city, everyone knows exactly where they're heading and how they're heading there. (Except for the tourists standing there with GPS-es and maps). Everyone and everything moves at such a quick pace compared to in KL. The senior citizens actually walk faster than me, even the escalators move faster than whatever speed I'm used to.

I think Singapore is an interesting and hygienic city. Like every great city in the world, it wasn't built in a day. That is why I think it is necessary for one to travel the world. There is beauty in every city, every nook and cranny.

Friendship

Friendship is a pretty important thing.

No, wait. Scratch that.

Friendship is one of the most important things in the world. Period.

When you meet someone new, you decide if you have anything in common and whether or not the friendship could go anywhere.You'll ask yourself if you want that person in your life.

From there, you will slowly get to know them- their likes and dislikes, strengths and weakness, as well as flaws. As the years go by, the friendship strengthen and builds, goes through trials and small arguments only to come out stronger. Friendship is about understanding and not agreeing all the time. 

The beauty of friendship is that you'll be able to talk to them about anything, grow together, pick each other up when one of you falls, share your pasts and secrets no matter how bad it is, complain about any bitch in your way, being able to trust them as well knowing you aren't judged and knowing you are accepted completely in their eyes. Friends are the family we choose for ourselves.

At times, a good friend- including one who played a huge part in your life, or one that have been there for you for as long as 5 years, might lie and just stab you in the back. You might even discover that there was always an agenda behind their friendliness and attempts of kindness. That they were using you and you weren't sharp enough to pick it up. Those shockingly unbelievable moments will hurt. They will sting and burn real badly but hey, pick yourself up, get over the shock, brush it off and smile. Things always happen for a reason. Be thankful because you were able to see their true colors before things got more serious. From there, you can decide what to do and whether or not you'd like to keep them in your lives, or keep them at arms' length. 

Someone wise once told me "You'd have to lose a friend sooner or later in life." That person is right. You will, you just won't know who and when, or even why. However, know that everything happens for a reason and that God has everything planned out. Even though along the way to where I am today, I've lost quite a few friends, I don't regret meeting them because you can't regret something that once made you smile. I will always cherish memories of what once was. 

Blogging completely from experience, strong friendships are really hard to find, difficult to forge but overall not impossible. Once a friendship based on a strong foundation is forged, don't let it go because those kinds are one in a million. I really appreciate and love all the good friends around me. Those who have genuinely been with me through thick and thin, the ones who put up with me, those who understand, accept and love me no matter what. I really thank God these amazing people are in my life. 

If you have a good friend, a true friend, a BFF or whatever you call it, cherish your friendship and never take him or her for granted because they're one in a million.

A New Chapter

How many of you know that feeling you get when you're engrossed in such a fascinating book where you hit the climax of the story and the plot is unravelled? With each chapter, you're thrown into different states as it gets better or worse for the leading character. All of us know that good books come to an end as time goes by.

As cheesy as it sounds, our life is like a book. The author is God the Creator and the story will come to an end eventually. With each phase of our life brings a new chapter. When one phase of our life comes to an end, the last page of that chapter is turned only to reveal another chapter of mystery.

As the saying goes, "yesterday was the past, today is the present and tomorrow is a mystery." We don't know when our life might end abruptly, that's why we should cherish every moment we're living, we have to seize the moment, seize the day - Carpe Diem.

This blog is a new chapter of my life. It dawned on me that the previous chapter of my life had ended the moment i held my SPM result slip in my hands. That slip showed me so many things. First being that 5 years of high school did not go to waste as the bittersweet memories, laughter, joy, friendship, knowledge and love will remain in my heart forever. Next being how life goes on and time flies by easily as it felt just like yesterday I was just starting in BRP. Third being how thankful I am to my family, friends (and haters), teachers, elders, pastors and especially God, for everything because I wouldn't be where I am today without them. These all showed me to appreciate those around me even more and to seize every possible moment. I had a good run in high school and I have absolutely no regrets. They say high school is the best 5 years of your life, from where I'm standing, the nostalgic memories replaying in my mind, the friendship forged, I agree. Make the best of every second, every moment, every day because one day you want to be able to look back and remember every step and opportunity you took. It's pretty much the same as reading a book for the first time and rereading it the second time, reliving every moment again.

As of this post, a new chapter in the book of my life has officially started.